Blake Fielder-Civil: Winehouse is my greatest love
Amy Winehouse`s ex-husband Blake Fielder-Civil says the singer is the "love of his life".
The musician had a turbulent, drug-fuelled relationship with Blake, which saw him imprisoned for grievous bodily harm and trial fixing. Amy managed to clean up her act while Blake was behind bars and although they attempted a reunion when he was released, they couldn`t make their long-distance relationship work.
The pair have now split for good and Amy is dating film director Reg Traviss. Blake is also in a new relationship and although he is happy with his latest girlfriend, he admits he will always have feelings for his superstar ex-wife.
"She`s the love of my life," Blake said in an interview with British magazine New! "She loves me, but not in a romantic way."
Blake claims he is now sober and accepts he and Amy were a bad influence on each other when they were together. He says they experimented with Class A drugs and became addicted to illegal substances because they were so depressed and scared of being forced to break up. Blake also says Amy was surrounded by people who wanted her to continue taking drugs because they were making money from the deals.
"At the time, we were so scared of being separated from each other that we didn`t trust other people`s motives," he explained. "We had people outside our house 24/7, shouting our names and trying to take photos of us so they could run a nasty story. You just end up imploding and drugs took that pain away.
"It wasn`t that rock`n`roll. There was no cocaine on cornflakes. It might have been spiced up as that, but it was very lonely, sad, depressing, mistrusting - it was just awful. You wake up and you`re poorly. The nature of addiction is that you have to persevere in it, otherwise the physical sickness you get is unbearable.
"We did try and make wholehearted attempts to stop on a few occasions and went to rehab clinics, but it just wasn`t working."