Corey Feldman pointed a loaded gun at his head at 11
The `Goonies` actor - who first appeared on screen at the age of three - stole his grandfather`s weapon and used to "pray to God" every day that he could have the courage to kill himself because he couldn-t cope with his difficult family life.
When asked what is the most traumatic thing that has ever happened to him, Corey said: "Me pointing a gun at my head when I was 11 years old. When you are so abused - physically, emotionally, pretty much every way you can imagine - by everybody you care about in your life, there comes a point when you feel like, `What`s the point of going on?`
"So I would pray to God every day that he would kill me. I stole the gun from my grandfather`s bureau and hid it under the bed and asked every day for the strength to pull the trigger."
The 40-year-old star claims he had a "terrible childhood" and was forced to learn how to be a performer by his parents Bob Feldman and
Sheila from when he was three.
Corey - who has a six-year-old son Zen with his estranged wife, former Playboy model Susie Sprague - thinks the only people who can relate to his life are those who have been "born into slavery".
Corey added in a frank interview with Britain`s OK! magazine: "From the moment that I can remember, three years old, I was locked in a room, basically, and made to learn songs to sing in auditions.
"I had a terrible childhood. I can only compare it to someone born in Ethiopia, or Iraq, or who is born into slavery, or gang life. Well I haven`t lived through that, but the next step down."