Shania Twain wanted to "go away and disappear" after divorce
The country singer - whose 14-year union with Robert -Mutt- Lange ended in May 2008 when he embarked on a relationship with Shania-s friend Marie-Anne Thiebaud - is delighted to be the focus of a new reality TV show, `Why Not? With ShaniaTwain`, as it is helping her "recover" from her personal problems.
She said: "I feel like in a way I`m starting over, with everything. This is a very personal experience that I think is important to share. This is an experience of recovery. I was in a very deep, dark slump, and I needed to find a way to get myself out of it. I had to force myself back out into life, back out into experiencing things.
"There were moments when I really just thought, `I don`t need anything and I don`t need anyone. I just want to go away and disappear.- So, that was a bad slump."
Explaining the title of her TV show, the 44-year-old star - who is now dating Marie-Anne`s ex-husband Frederic - says it is a reference to her recovery.
She explained at a presentation for OWN: The Oprah Winfrey Network, which will broadcast the series: "One day, someone said to me, `Do you want to go jump out of an airplane?` I felt like I had nothing to lose anymore, so I said, `Why not?` And every day since then, I ask myself that question."
Shania - who has an eight-year-old son Eja with Mutt - is still recovering from her relationship woes and admits she is unsure if she will ever fully be able to put the separation behind her.
She said: "There`s a lot of recovery to accomplish. I`m not there yet. I`m on my way there. I`m not sure I`ll ever be there."